toil and trouble.

i am having trouble giving a shit.

this isn't unfamiliar to me, it's a naturally occurring phenomenon across the world student population. happens around 5 - 7 weeks into each semester.

Every new semester heralds a burst of enthusiasm for novel new projects, notebooks white as piano keys, empty mind eager enough for challenges to bite off so much of project pies that all the cursing in week 3-4 is muffled and gross to behold.

And then week 7 comes on, and the shit? it does not care as much anymore. it just trudges.

problem: am not a student anymore. Work doesn't end in another 10 weeks. It's evermore from now on. forever and ever, amen. 'til death do us part. handcuffed and throw away the key.

i may have dug myself a hole here. Oops.